I had been busy lately not for myself, but its for others.
The first week of May was supposed to be focusing on my preparing on my studies, but it seems like I can't as there is a change in plan for the election and the candidate that is supposed to represent the constituency.
Well, is it planned or just that it is a process to be learnt from a long journey?
I don't know, this election is seriously lead to people of both different sides, one is a supporter of the ruling party, the other is the opposition and the other is total "none of my business."
But yesterday (14 May 2011), I had watched the Show Luo Encore Concert at Indoor Stadium, it was supposed to be a happy occasion, yet the entire concert, the partner whom we had decided to get the tickets during April and had decided to happy enjoyed the concert was not a good experience at all. There was little interaction, I don't know why? Probably he is troubled or because we had different belief and views.
Second, the group which I surpised to know that they went for bowling, well, I was disappointed but the fact that I was not called or asked to come, well, probably they think that I am busy with something related community service on Friday. Well, assume to be busy?!
Anyway, it's all right, life can be be great without me.
Third, after the concert, I was supposed to have dinner, it was unplanned to meet another common friend of ours, however, he drove us to a food centre to have dinner. Well, its seem that the 2 are not happy, thus, instead of happily had my dinner, there are little conversation and interaction, well, its all right. I 'll rather be quiet.
The part I was annoyed is that, my own schedule and things that I had been doing lately had to be updated by someone who seems to act as though he knows me well. As the fact that, I had not reveal that, I was part of the party in doing my community service. Well, my intention is to help, no matter, which part I am at, somewhat if you guys are not supporting the party, or we have different views? I still respect it, so just have the basic dilligent to know what is to be known and mention as I did not mention anything about me belonging to the party, it is that, a friend of mine, just tagged a pic of me with the the party tee-shirt.
Last, I hope I am not thinking too much. Probably, you guys like to stick to the same stick group. However, please don't mention that you guys will call me to join to all to study, and in the end, I saw from the fb status - the place where you guys check in - when reflected, it just show how unwelcome I am, or just that the rest are too busy to contact me, or assume that I will be busy to reply? Well, I did not reply once. As my phone is silent, yet I know you guys might be expecting that I will not be coming?! Well, its all right cos its does not matter if I am welcome to the group?!
Though such details might place me into difficult situation if anyone mention happened to read this, yet in another presepective, I just wanna write them down, and not use my voice to argue things to make them ugly. Well, its all right if I am not important, cos it is a stage of life whereby people whom you think they are your friends will leave, or because you are different from them in terms of the party you support.
Its all right. Life goes on from here, no matter how tough and difficult things can be, I just hope to do well in things I do and my exam and not let negative things flood my minds as it keeps coming into my heads. Just simply hate it as it can't get away from me, though in the past, I might just want to end everything...But I know, life is precious!
Today (15 May 2011)
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